Supported by the time in my head

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It's a daunting but exhilarating task. There is a part of me that still questions if I'm crazy for taking this on. Although my reasons are purposeful, personal and powerful, I still believe in the magic and beauty of deeply personal journeys/challenges. They bring about an enormous amount of fortitude, determination and resilience in the face of meeting your "real" self. I keep wondering if time will be on my side to complete this or will time play cat and mouse with me. Spiritually speaking though, I have plenty of time to witness the unfolding of this project. Perhaps I will be gifted with profound insight about my life and what lies ahead, beneath, and under the surface of it all. There is no rush because quite honestly who really cares if I meet my deadline? We think that people are so invested in what we're doing. Maybe a few are. Most importantly, I am invested in my personal growth, my ability to focus and to see beyond what is obviously in front of me. I also would like to relax a little bit more with this process. I would like to actually give myself permission to engage in the task as a meditation of sorts. It has been nice to stay at home and work. When I am "in-between" graphic design projects, I usually stay out of the house and find things to do. Sometimes those things are mindless, sometimes it involves spending money that I don't have and other times, it becomes a long walk paying reverence to all the goodness that is in my life. Time does support us. We are the ones that sometimes disrespect the time that has been gifted to us. The time that lives in my head is infinity because let's face it, if you believe that you are truly supported by time, then you can slow down and ironically, time matches your pace.